The last few weeks have been monumental. Don has been continually studying/cramming for the last 7 weeks. He passed two exams only to fail the third. The boys and I have been to Qld, where I attended the Word Writers Conference in Brisbane and then had a few days holiday with family. Since we have arrived home we have been very busy, and the boys and I have had a head/cold/fever.To top it off Centrelink called yesterday to inform us that they were decreasing our payments as they had made a mistake with their calculations. Oh dear. I am sure that you have days like this, sometimes weeks even, where everything just seems to go pear-shaped.
The world suddenly becomes much to big for it's boots and you feel like you are about to be buried under a pile of rubble.
Do not despair, God is there.
He has not gone somewhere just because things are not going swimmingly in your life, in fact if anything he is closer than the air your breathe.
Do not allow bitterness to settle in your heart, but let yourself be transformed by the renewing of your mind (Rom 12:2)
Do not compare yourself and your situation to others around you. Each of us is on our own unique journey, and though we may encourage and uplift one another, comparing will do you no favours. People will always be better off than you, people will always be worse off than you. Your problems are as significant as the next persons and your troubles will not overcome you, if you give them over to God in prayer.
God can take what is broken in your life and turn it around for your good.
Harbouring self pity and bitterness in your heart bind God's ability to help you. He will not force you to choose him. He has always given us free will.
I am not rebuking you today, I am reminding myself and sharing with you in the process. I will not pretend to be more than I am. I would be nothing but for the mercy of God.
We know many families going through life changing circumstances and unimaginable heartaches, we know people that are struggling to pay bills, have ongoing depression, some who are watching their kids struggle daily with their health, and some who have lost them this side of heaven. But I will not take on their burdens or they will crush me. Only Jesus was designed to carry the weight of the burden of sin. He did it all on the cross for us so that we would not have to crushed under the weight. I warn you, as I warn myself, do not harbour disappointment, anger, resentment and offence in your heart.
I will cry with them, I will laugh with them in victory, I will carry them to God in prayer.
'Father God refresh my mind and heal the wound left by bitterness in my heart. Forgive me. I love you. I wait for your joy in the morning.'