Hearts in Need of Prayer

There is so much heartache at the moment, to do with Sam's little heart friends. 

Will you please pray for the children and their families.  It is almost unimaginable, the trials they now face.  I will not share their names, God knows who they are.  God knows what they need.  Only He can be their peace and comfort.

Thank you in advance.

Don's News

Don has been officially accepted to study at the Australian Centre for Mission Aviation, in conjunction with the Melbourne School of Theology.  He is very excited!

It is truly amazing to watch how everything just happens one step after another. 

The study year starts on February 15th February.  We still don't know if we will be there for this year or not.  We have to sign a student agreement to accept his place in the course by December 10.  Part of the agreement is that we will pay the course fees. 

We keep asking the Lord for his provision and we know he is faithful.  He wouldn't call us to something that he is not going to provide for.  He will either sell our home or a great sum of money will miraculously appear in our letterbox.  Perhaps that's why this home has such a big letterbox!  Hahaha. 

Either way, we will either start in 2011 or 2012.  All in God's timing for his glory!

"The one who calls you is faithful and He will do it." (1 Thessalonians 5:24)

Mummy Moments

We are having an open house tomorrow.  Apparently the market is very slow at the moment, but we believe God can do anything.  So can you please pray with us that God will send the right person to come and buy our home? 

I have some Mummy moments that I just need to share.

Jack, Sam and I have been doing some school work.  Jack had to do some pre-assessment for Prep next year for his school.  Jack loves having everything well organised for his school work and is very excited to be doing some work for his teacher.  I was very proud of his efforts.  Sam is just too cute, wanting to do everything that Jack does.

Yesterday Sam also started using the toilet and training pants.  He is improving each time.  Way to go Sam.  I am very much looking forward to the day when I can bypass the nappy isle at the grocery shop. 

The Book-an exciting development

Praise God in Heaven!

A publisher is interested in publishing Sam's Heart-the book.

I am extremely excited to the point that I am speechless.  Those of you who know me, this is  very rare.

He has made a way.

I ask you to praise God with me, for making a way. For opening the heart of the reader. For sending out this work, which was inspired by him. To touch the lives of others who need to hear words of encouragement and hope.  Pray to keep communications between the publisher and myself open anoint the whole process with his Holy Spirit.  Pray that the Lord will make time in the days ahead for me to complete this work while looking after two little boys.

What an amazing day.  I will celebrate today with singing and dancing.  And I will be busy preparing the book for it's next step.

Worship While You Wait

On the outside, it would seem like not much has been happening over the course of the last few weeks.  But inwardly God has been preparing us for what is ahead. 

As much as we try to be patient, we are not, and would like our home to be sold yesterday so that we could move on.  However this is not God's plan, so we must wait for his timing.

This last week I finished having a skin cancer removed from my chest and was cleared of any further problems.  So glory to God for that!  I asked God to use it to glorify his name.  And while the doctor and nurse performed the small surgical procedure, I had a captive audience for over 1/2 hour. They asked many questions about what we are doing in our lives, Sam's condition and God's plans for the future.  It just amazed me that God used this simple operation to glorify him and letting me share what God has done in our lives. 

We have had wonderful times with friends this week and have been so blessed by keeping our eyes focused on God and not the situations at hand.This brings me to the words that have been so dear to my heart this week:

Be still in the presence of the Lord and wait patiently for him to act (Psalm 37:7)

I will praise you Lord, with all my heart;

I will tell of all of the marvelous things you have done.

I will be filled with joy because of you.

I will sing praises to your name,

O Most High.  (Psalm 9:1-2)

It is a daily battle to keep my focus on God when everything else around me is calling out for attention, but with his help I can do it.  When I make a choice to worship him instead of being dragged down by the circumstances, the worries cease, and my heart is light and filled with hope.

Keep your eyes fixed on the author and finisher of your faith (God), keep wading through the waters and you will reach the place of rest and safety. 

A Step of Faith

The application for Don to start study at the Bible College of Victoria was sent today.  It was the closing date for applications and so we took a step of faith and posted it, believing that all will work out according to God's plan.  The Certificate IV in Ministry begins on February 7th 2011.  So to be able to start then we will have to sell our home by then. 

It is strange applying for a course knowing full well that we don't know if we will make it on time.  But it can be deferred and other options are also available for starting mid year if need be. 

Walking in faith is like walking along a narrow path up a mountain, with your eyes closed.

Each step is monumental in making sure that you stay on the track.  Instead of walking by what you see and hear, you  listen carefully for God's voice telling you where to tread..."this way to the right, a little to the left, watch that big rock!" 

Occasionally we open our eyes to look around and as we survey the distance we have come, we are astounded by the path behind us.  It is rough, full of potholes, prickles, loose gravel and there are often steep drops on each side.  But as we raise our eyes and look out over the panoramic view, the beauty takes our breath away.  And we know that if we'd taken the easy path, the view would have been much less spectacular.

As we ascend the mountain slowly but surely we can have great confidence that the God who leads us will not let us fall.  He is the only one that can see the hidden holes in the road and the other dangers on the path to come.  I wouldn't want to try and walk the road in this life alone.

Commit everything you do to the Lord.

Trust him, an he will help you.

(Psalm 37:5)

The Lord directs the steps of the godly,

He delights in every detaill of their lives,

Though they stumble, they will never fall,

for the Lord holds them by the hand.

(Psalm 37:23)

Be Patient, Don't Worry

Look at the birds.  They don't plant or harvest or store food in barns, for your heavenly Father feeds them.  And aren't you far more valuable to him than they are?  Can all your worries add a single moment to your life?

(Matthew 6:26-27)

Photo captured in our garden, October 2010.



The Statistics

Time since God called us to serve with MAF:  1 month 4 days

House on the market for:  9 days

Number of home inspections:  1

Percentage of house cleaned out and sorted:  75%

Size of coming garage sale:  HUGE!!

Bible college in Coldstream Victoria is due to begin on February 7th, 2011.  Whether we start then or later is up to God.  But we must sell our home first.

Trust in God:  100%...97%...100%...97%...100% (I'm being honest here)

Do we need your prayers:  Yes please!

Overwhelmed- A good thing?

This afternoon I was caught completely off guard.  The enemy had snuck in and had stolen my motivation, joy and ability to overcome.  Circumstances surrounding me that are completely out of my hands seemed monumental and the tasks ahead, simple things, like making dinner and folding washing just seemed too hard.  My heart was hurting and as a result the world seemed too big.  While washing up for the third time today, I come to the realisation that I was trying too hard.  I was trying too hard to be a friend to everybody, to clean up everyone's mess, to pray for everyone, to solve everyone's problems and keep my heart intact at the same time.  While I stood there with my hands in the hot water, God reminded me I was overwhelmed and he had allowed it.

 It is a good thing for me, because only when I come to the end of myself, do I realise that I need him. 

He reminded me that it is not my job to take on everyone's burdens, no even my own.  Sometimes it seems impossible to pray for everything that is going on inside your heart and head, but thankfully he already knows it all anyhow.  What I do need to take time to do, is just sit and soak in his presence.  Let him lift the weight of the world from my shoulders and give me his load to carry instead.  Because he promises:

Come to me, all of you who are weary and carry heavy burdens, and I will give you rest.  Take my yoke upon you.  Let me teach you, because I am humble and gentle at heart, and you will find rest for your souls.  For my yoke is easy to bear, and the buren I give you is light.  (Matthew 11:28-30)

To be able to take up his yoke, you cannot carry anything else in your hands.  Everything that burdens your heart and mind must be layed down first.  Only then will you find rest for your soul. 

Bring it on Jesus!  I need that rest!  Take all of this stuff that I have pent up through the day, only you have control over it anyway.  Forgive me for not seeing it earlier.  Love all of my family and friends even though I can't be there for them all, I know you are.  You know what they need Lord.  Thank you for your peace.  I love You.  Thankyou Father.

Focus

Yesterday was a day of searching.  As I sat down to try and work out some figures and budget the could be's, should be's and maybe's for our upcoming move and study, doubt began to encroach.  Will the funds made from our home be enough to cover the course costs, are we able to access Centrelink benefits to help us out, with the cost of the courses rising would Don still be able to complete both his engineering and flight components?  So many questions.  As I began to delve into a world of numbers and unanswered questions things began to look a little more grim.  As the course costs have risen quite considerably, I broke the news to Don that we may not be able to do both streams, but I was tormented in my spirit because we know in our hearts he is meant to do both. 

Wait a minute where do torment, insecurity, doubt and unbelief come from?  Yeah you know where!  Not from God hey!

So as Don wrapped his arms about me and prayed, we gave it all back to God and prayed that his grace would be enough and that he look after it all, it is too hard for us.  How do you plan for a course of action when you don't know how long you're going to be there, how much money you're going to need, where you're going to live and whether your house will sell in time to make it all work anyhow?  Do you really want  Don to do both courses Lord, we are unsure?

As we let it all go and rested back in the arms of Jesus, I quickly checked email before heading out the door and saw that we had received an email from the engineer manager at ACMA, the place where Don is to study.  In this email he went on to tell us that although MAF does encourage it's members only to do one or the other, both would be a great asset on the field and is something that may be used more in the future.  He encouraged us by telling Don how much they would love to have his skill at work down there while he studies and gave a brief course of direction for completing the course because of Don's previous experience.

You have to understand that this email was a gift from God.

God answered our concerns as we voiced then to him, even before we voiced them.  We know now without a doubt that Don must do both the engineering and flight components and we just have to trust that he will provided the funds needed for us to do it. 

I'm so glad that he holds the big picture in his hands, I would make such a mess of things if I painted the picture just by looking at the piece I hold in my hands.  It is so easy to get distracted by all of the things laying before us if I focus on them too much.  I know that things like working out the finances have to be done, but they must not overcome me.  When it all becomes too much I have to remember to back off and send it heavenwards. 

So don't worry about these things, saying, 'What will we eat?  What will we drink?  What will we wear?'  These things dominate the thoughts of unbelievers, but your heavenly Father already knows all your needs.  Seek the Kingdom of God above all else, and live righteously, and he will give you everything that you need. 

"So don't worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will bring it's own worries.  Today's trouble is enough for today.

(Matthew 6 : 31-34)

One Dearly Loved Home For Sale

As of yesterday, our home is for sale.  It's great how we have such a sense of peace about this and how every time a doubtful thought comes, it is quickly dismissed.  I find the times when doubts come is when we focus on the situation at hand and take our eyes off of God.

You can check it out on here.

One step at a time is the key I think.  It can be all too overwhelming if we look too far forward. Our first step is to sell our home.  While doing this we are in contact with the Bible College of Victoria and MAF to apply for the courses that Don needs to do.  If we are able, it would be good to start college at the beginning of next year (Early Feb).  However it is all in God's timing, as we need to sell our home to fund Don's training.  We know God has planned this timing and so now we just need to keep a listening ear open to him and take our cares and requests to him.

I wonder if you would pray with us for finding the right buyer for our home, the person God has picked out.  I wonder if you could pray that they will offer a fair price.  I wonder if you will pray with us that the application to the College will go smoothly and according to God's timetable.  Pray for our children and for us, as we deal with alot of change.

We are currently going through all of our belongings and selling and giving away many things we don't know need.  It is both an exhilarating and difficult process.  It is quite amazing they way God is using the things no longer need.  People who have real need are being bought to our attention and we know they are meant to have certain things.  It is really quite fun.  Because we will be moving interstate, we are trying to take only the important things with us.

We already have an inspection tomorrow morning, so who knows it could all happen much faster than we think. 

About the Book

For those who have been following our journey for a while, you would know that I have written a book about our little boy Sam and the way God has held our family in the palm of his hand. It includes the blog entries during this time as well as many personal prayers, reflections and the miracles that unfolded during that time. I have submitted it to a publisher without any success but will continue to submit it as God leads. I am now submitting it to another organisation and I am hopeful that God will do the rest. Thank you Sue and Jess for taking the time to read and edit the book and offer you most valuable advice. It was such a blessing to me that both of you offered your time on this.

Would you please pray with us that this work God asked me to write will be published to glorify His name? That the book may be out there to encourage someone who is in need of hope in a world that sometimes offers so little hope and encouragement.

We are not in denial. We know that Sam's journey with Hypoplastic Left Heart is far from over but we know that God could heal him any minute to bring glory to himself. Already we are seeing miraculous signs like Sam not needing so much of his medication to thin his blood. The dose should be increasing as he grows but remarkably it has decreased!

No he hasn't received his new heart yet. However, at this point in time we just have to close our eyes, trust him and hold on for the ride. The bible says:

Faith is the confidence that what we hope for will actually happen; it gives us assurance about things, we cannot see. (Hebrews 1:11)

We may not yet see the evidence of Sam's new heart but we trust that the God who promised his healing, tells only the truth. How and when is up to God, not for us to decide. In the meantime we will do what he has called us to do and not worry. He had it all planned in the beginning anyway.