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Thursday, August 18, 2011

SOS-Get Me Away from Myself


Today I have have been my own worst enemy.  I am tired, frazzled from being indoors too often with two small boys, and trying to organise a new home, when what we own doesn't quite  fit.  We still have no answers to whether Jack can continue Prep, or whether Don's medical to fly is approved.  A washing line is useless, unless it is indoors in Melbourne, and the copious amounts of mud outdoors mean the boys use many pairs of pants in one day.  We are adjusting to having one car, so we either wake in the morning and drop Don to ACMA or we stay at home for the day.  We still have no money coming in, as Centrelink takes along time to process anything, this side of next year.  Which is fine because we are living on the money we received from our home, all of which has to in the end, pay for Don's study.  The boys are watching way too much TV, because their Mum (me), needs serious mental health time.............

Last night I went to women's bible study looking to meet God there, to be uplifted, and I came home feeling worse than when I left.  AHHHHHHH!

"Ok, breathe, stop and pray, and claim the promise 'Seek first the Kingdom of God and live righteously and He will give you everything you need'(Matthew 6:33) (and repeat)"

We have had quite a big month, it's going to take some time to adjust.  I want you to see that I am human, a wife, a mother, a somewhat frustrated author, and a woman living day by day with the same mundane struggles that we all face. If you can think of us when you pray in the next little while, you would be showing me more love than you can ever know.

xx Nicole

6 comments:

  1. I don't know if it'll make you feel any better to hear that my family know exactly where you're coming from in some of these areas as we are there too. Andrew is a full time student and we're living from one Centrelink payment to the next. Financially, things are extremely tight. The wet and woolly weather down south was probably a shock to your systems.
    Hang in there. You know deep in your heart you'll be alright. As your web presence is so often a comfort to many others, I hope we're able to help boost your spirits too.

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  2. Thanks for your empathy Paula. I can see God's hands upholding us and leading us forward. I think it all caught up with me this week. Thankfully I can face face it head on with His help. Bless you for your encouragement xx

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  3. Nicole, just know you are being prayed for right now xox

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  4. Thanks Narelle for your continued love and support xx

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